Been in a weird funk this week and it started when I turned 25 the other day. I’ve been thinking about where I am in my life, my career and now my love life.
Monday night I actually got complimented by a girl and we were chatting and seemed to get on and I thought well fuck it, I may as well go for it. I’ve got nothing to lose, not getting any younger after all.
I went to go get her a drink but by the time I got back from the bar, I clearly wasn’t an option…
Needless to say my feelings got hurt and confidence took a nose dive.
It’s been really hard to shake it off, and although I’m used to being passed over, it seems harder because someone actually complimented me for the first time in very long time.
I can’t even put it into words because it’s a combination of things all affecting me. Just feel so frustrated at everything but wanting to hide away as well.
But I don’t think I’d be able to cope so well with shit like this without my friends. They make me laugh and able to forget shit that is getting me down.
Least I know I’ve got them as the one constant thing in my life :)